Learning to Be Weak

August 20, 2018.Reading time 8 minutes.

I have been learning the same lesson over and over the past several months, actually more like the past two years. The lesson is this: I am weak. At times I’ve felt intensely frustrated, stuck, even hopeless, wondering if this season will ever end. But what can I say? God is a thorough teacher. Not Okay […]

Remembering the Dark Times

April 26, 2018.Reading time 6 minutes.

I used to see the dark times as something to forget. I wanted to pretend they had never happened. My struggles and failures, the moments of intense loneliness, fear, and confusion––I just wanted to put all that behind me. The point was to overcome. The point was to move forward. But in the midst of recent […]

Failing at Love and Being Overwhelmed by Greater Love

November 24, 2017.Reading time 9 minutes.

I’ve been thinking a lot about love lately. Not romance, but the kind of love we are all supposed to have for one another. Sacrificial love. Neighborly love. Compassionate love. Strangely, at the very same time I’ve been pondering the importance of love, I have simultaneously been dismissing my own need for it. What I […]

Rediscovering the Joy of Serving: Overcoming my Disillusionment

November 9, 2017.Reading time 12 minutes.

Several months ago, I shared about my struggles with obligation as a good Christian girl. I wrote, “Obligation killed my joy.” In the same post, I shared that God had promised to take me deeper into the JOY of serving. He has. Here is some of my journey and what I’ve learned. Disillusionment I loved […]

Some Lessons From the Middle of the Process

July 19, 2017.Reading time 9 minutes.

I haven’t been blogging much the past month because I’ve been doing a lot of personal processing. A lot. My thoughts, beliefs, hopes, fears, insights, and regrets have been tangled together like a giant knot that is slowly loosening. And from that mess, I didn’t feel I had anything to share. I’m still in the […]

The Tale of a Good Girl Seeking Escape from Obligation

May 19, 2017.Reading time 10 minutes.

The Life of a Good Girl As a “good girl,” I have always known there were certain things I should do. Certain things I should be. I should be kind and considerate. I should be respectful and obedient. I should complete the tasks assigned to me with excellence. I should avoid laziness, tardiness, dishonesty, or anything that would […]

Coming to the End of What I Thought I Knew

April 21, 2017.Reading time 3 minutes.

“Knowledge puffs up.”1 Corinthians 8:1 Ever since I was young, I have craved knowledge and understanding. As a kid, I asked my parents what the meaning of life was and thought their answer, “No one really knows,” struck me as absolutely ridiculous. So everyone is just blindly staggering through their lives? That makes no sense! I have […]

Learning to Love Myself

March 9, 2017.Reading time 6 minutes.

Recently I had an unexpected epiphany: I realized I needed to forgive myself. As a Christian, forgiveness seems like a pretty basic concept. God forgave us, so we must forgive others. We need to let go of offense, get rid of bitterness, and release to others the grace we have been shown. It’s one of those deceptively simple Sunday […]