The Moments That Make Up a Life

June 9, 2016.Reading time 4 minutes.

Lately I’ve been wondering about the meaning of my life. Right now. In these minutes and hours that are filling my days. What is the measure of these moments? Sometimes it feels like I’m just barely getting by. The past few months have been busy. I’ve been balancing a lot of duties, roles, goals, and relationships, and it’s been exhausting. I’ve […]

Made For More

November 4, 2015.Reading time 5 minutes.

Sometimes I feel like I was made for more, more than what my current life is. Recently I’ve been feeling it rather strongly––this nagging sensation that I have more potential inside me than I’m tapping into. And that nagging feeling is leading to frustration. Could this just be Millennial hubris (as my brother has been saying)? Am I just another example of Why Generation […]

Making His Praise Glorious

April 9, 2015.Reading time 7 minutes.

When I was a little girl dreaming about singing on stage as part of a worship team, I had very little understanding of what that role required. Now that I have the privilege of not only singing with a praise team, but being a praise leader, I know that it’s about much more than singing a few songs or saying a […]

Taking Myself Seriously as a Musician

June 13, 2014.Reading time 5 minutes.

This year, God has been challenging me to take myself seriously as an intercessor, worship leader, shepherd, and influencer. And a big part of that has been choosing to cut certain things out of my life. In order to gain something, you often have to forfeit other things. So I’ve been rearranging the way I live…

More Than Good Enough: Overcoming the Pressure to Perform

March 21, 2014.Reading time 6 minutes.

The Pianist There was a time when practicing the piano was a part of my daily life. That time spanned most of my life thus far. I forget that sometimes. But when I randomly sit down at my keyboard and play some Chopin, it all comes rushing back. I feel like I’m breathing in real air […]

Unexpected Reminders: Classical Music

March 7, 2013.Reading time 5 minutes.

Two weeks ago, I was sitting in church when something unexpected happened. A realization hit me so hard I sobbed through closing praise. On the verge of starting my first full time job (as a kindergarten teacher) and of leading my first small group at church, I assumed that all my energy and all my thoughts […]

Done with Performing

October 31, 2012.Reading time 6 minutes.

Last weekend at my church’s Praise Team Retreat, I performed a song I wrote. It was the first time I’ve ever performed an original song for a group of people, and I was pretty nervous. I expected that. What I didn’t expect was getting so choked up with emotion that I could barely croak out the […]